Holding Out

I've been trying to hold out on posting an update on pictures, but I simply can not wait any longer. haha.

I've been married for 10 days, and I gotta tell you. Not much is different. But so much is.

Makes no sense, right?

We're both back to work. We still live together. We lived together before we got married. Our house is still a wreck with wedding vomit. And we're still very much in love.

But I got a new ring. And I call him husband now.

And it's effing rad. I love being married. I love having a husband whom I cherish. And a new wonderful stepson that I can claim as my family (officially). I love it when people ask me, "So, how's married life?"

It's effing awesome. That's how it is.

Also, now that we're married and no longer planning a wedding... the crafting is officially open to whatever the hell I want to do. Good Riddance Wedding Planning!!!

What's his is mine.. and what's mine is... well... it's mine! hahaha

No, not really. But kinda.

We got married yesterday, and just like everyone said, it went by really fast.

It was beautiful and everything went off without much of a hitch... again, just like everyone said.

I will have a full update on the festivities soon... but first I need some water, ibuprofen, and a blueberry muffin.

Tangible!

Oh man.

I know I've been planning my wedding for nearly 10 months now. And I've been excited about having a marriage, and planning the future along with the thought of "Marriage". But, for some reason, in my head, wedding hasn't equalled marriage. Not until yesterday.

Let me explain. Wedding has equalled big huge party with cake and dancing. Wedding has meant to me a time when I can see all of my family and friends in one place. Wedding has meant a gathering of people who support me and Eric and our future.

Marriage has meant so much more to me than that.

We got our marriage license yesterday. And although I'm 100% committed to being with this person for the rest of my life, it finally became tangible in a way I never recognized before. Wedding = Marriage.

Holy shit.

We went down to the marriage license office yesterday. On the way over, I got nervous for the very first time. It wasn't a bad nervous... but it was definitely nerves I was feeling. A little barfy feeling and a lot sweaty feeling. Gross. But totally awesome. There I was at this office filling out things and deciding upon my last name and all the while standing next to my future. Not only am I doing this... but so is he. He's committing to be MINE for the rest of his life.

Holy Shit. That is so EFFING AWESOME.

And so it is. In 16 days, I will belong to him. But he'll belong to me as well. And although the wedding has become suddenly VERY real, as has the sudden stress of getting it all finished, the relief that I get to have this person be there for all of my milestones and stresses and fears and happiness and *sigh/gush*. This is incredible.

HOLY SHIT!